On My Lonesome! But not too lonely
For the last 20ish days, Mike has been traveling the west with Orange Mighty Trio. As professional musicians, touring is incredibly important because, as I understand it, there is no better way to get your name out there, grow a fan base, and make a few dollars while you're at it.
Touring goodbyes have always been tough for me. A committed adventurer of sorts, the lifestyle of the touring musician has generous appeal: new places, new people, fresh perspectives. Yet, at this point in my life, I've needed to stay home. Over the last couple years, I've realized that, if we are going to last, I would need to make peace with the idea that Mike will continue to tour and travel for as long as he can! I can deal with that reality if I discover and create passion in my own work, projects, and daily toodling.
As Mike returns home with a list of wild stories and inspiration, I can also look back on the last weeks and offer some of my own:
-Canoeing seventeen miles down the St. Croix with three girlfriends, two dogs, and an amazing array of fresh food.
-2 music and movies picnics at Loring Park
-Completing the Urban Wildland Half Marathon in 2:02:18 with a good friend and solid running buddy by my side.
-Treating myself so 4ish DQ ice cream cones (medium, vanilla) and 1 amazing Sebastian Joe's cone (oh man...what was that flavor??)
-2 hardcore runs with the most fun, tough, and hilarious runner out there. More on this in future post...
-1 short (!) haircut
-Dinner with my lovely downstairs neighbor at Midori's Floating World Cafe. A not very adventurous sushi eater, I ordered my ol' standby, the California Roll...needless to say, I was perfectly satisfied.
-A successful shopping trip. Of course, I bought fancy dresses instead of work clothes...more on this in future post...
-An unreasonable number of walks and runs with Rachel. In fact, it seemed that each time my mother called, I was (surprise) out walking with Rachel. Rachel was the BEST company ever these last weeks (except for the night of the awful thunderstorm...)
-planning and beaming over the exciting lessons I'll be teaching this fall!
So, as my hardcore/hilarious runner friend put it, "You've learned that you can live without Mike." Actually, that's not my point at all. The point here is: I have learned my passion(s) in life extend beyond my relationship, as they should! Further, I can take care of myself and bring joy to my own days. And, to be honest,this wasn't always true.
I believe someone wise once wrote/said, you cannot truly love someone else, until you love and accept yourself. The best love is one that is not possessive or needy, but comfortable and sure. Judging from my own journey, I'd say that's about right.
Touring goodbyes have always been tough for me. A committed adventurer of sorts, the lifestyle of the touring musician has generous appeal: new places, new people, fresh perspectives. Yet, at this point in my life, I've needed to stay home. Over the last couple years, I've realized that, if we are going to last, I would need to make peace with the idea that Mike will continue to tour and travel for as long as he can! I can deal with that reality if I discover and create passion in my own work, projects, and daily toodling.
As Mike returns home with a list of wild stories and inspiration, I can also look back on the last weeks and offer some of my own:
-Canoeing seventeen miles down the St. Croix with three girlfriends, two dogs, and an amazing array of fresh food.
-2 music and movies picnics at Loring Park
-Completing the Urban Wildland Half Marathon in 2:02:18 with a good friend and solid running buddy by my side.
-Treating myself so 4ish DQ ice cream cones (medium, vanilla) and 1 amazing Sebastian Joe's cone (oh man...what was that flavor??)
-2 hardcore runs with the most fun, tough, and hilarious runner out there. More on this in future post...
-1 short (!) haircut
-Dinner with my lovely downstairs neighbor at Midori's Floating World Cafe. A not very adventurous sushi eater, I ordered my ol' standby, the California Roll...needless to say, I was perfectly satisfied.
-A successful shopping trip. Of course, I bought fancy dresses instead of work clothes...more on this in future post...
-An unreasonable number of walks and runs with Rachel. In fact, it seemed that each time my mother called, I was (surprise) out walking with Rachel. Rachel was the BEST company ever these last weeks (except for the night of the awful thunderstorm...)
-planning and beaming over the exciting lessons I'll be teaching this fall!
So, as my hardcore/hilarious runner friend put it, "You've learned that you can live without Mike." Actually, that's not my point at all. The point here is: I have learned my passion(s) in life extend beyond my relationship, as they should! Further, I can take care of myself and bring joy to my own days. And, to be honest,this wasn't always true.
I believe someone wise once wrote/said, you cannot truly love someone else, until you love and accept yourself. The best love is one that is not possessive or needy, but comfortable and sure. Judging from my own journey, I'd say that's about right.
what an amazing woman! and i want to see a picture of your hair :) i love you tons.
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